Walking Contradiction

I am a walking contradiction..
I am 21..
I am a Legal Assistant..
I love my job and I don't want to give it up..
I enjoy what I'm doing everyday..

But I STILL wish I could be 18 and not have to be serious about anything..

I want to laze around at home in the day..
I want to go to bed for the day when the sun rises..
I want to lie in bed the entire afternoon and watch clouds drift past my window..
I want to spend my father's money =P
I want to laze my life away..

But I also want to be 21, with earning power and the happiness of knowing my dream of success is just one step closer to reality..

*sigh*

- 15 July 9:00pm -